job

well i had my fingerprints taken yesterday. was kind of cool actually, no ink at all. it's all done electronically then the images appear on the computer monitor. no scuffs no streaks shine last 5 weeks. got to the hiring center and had to wait 15 minutes, not sooo bad since im a bit impatient with certain things. no im not, but really i am. then the old timer calls me and i go in the back. he takes each of my fingers and rolls them to make the imprint, at first the image was smudging and he kept saying relax. well maybe if the senile old thumper, with 3 inch spikey hairs coming from his sniffer wasnt squeezing my fingers together like he was trying to pop open a freshly filled whitehead it would be easier to relax. damn fool!

anyways my phone hasnt been working for 2 days and finally worked last night. i had 2 voicemails from the hiring center asking if i took my drug screen. they sent me an email as well. i told them i wasnt aware of that and wasnt told. so i called them this morning and now i have to go back to phoenix, get the paperwork and go fill a cup of my herbal morning recipe. i kicked the black tar and poppy seed bagels a while so i should be mr clean. start work aug 10th, looking forward to getting back in the workforce.

need to do:
get car registered - finally received certified copy of title in mail
get oil change
get freon for a/c
eventually get a dragon tattoo

arizona heat

triple digit weather, and a blanket of hot air still going strong here in az. it's incredibly hot, not to mention the a/c in my car blows out hotter air than the outside steamroom of hot air. gonna have to get that repaired. also, what's with the photo enforcement cameras and radars on every fuckin light. yeah, uh i dont like it... and to top it off i received a beautiful photograph in the mail, a well done candid face shot of ME ( looking pretty good..haha).. bg, going through a red light and received a 224 dollar ticket for it!!! WOW! well, just got a job and have to get my fingerprints taken tomorrow... like they are going to find something on me, SHIT... i dont get caught!

off to class, just a short post
a little taste to wet your pallet
ill be back.

arizona fun

seems like a life-time ago when i last blogged. it slips my mind sometimes, but im back again with a vengeance telling my real life stories which touch the hearts of many people, and some just sowing horror and fear in the souls. be warned, this may cause heart palipitations and nauseau... so read at your own risk.

ive been in az now for about 2.5 wks. so, im on the job hunt, blasted resumes all over and have had a few interviews so far. sunshine has been making some fabulous lunches, and made the tofu scramble from spiral (very yummy). makes me not miss spiral so much! went to trader joes yesterday for supplies and purchased some necessities and baking stuff. nearly overflowing her 2 enormous book bags of food and etc.. we only spent 60 bucks. tj rocks and it's so close!

also have been going to my no gi jui jitsu classes 3-4 times a week and am loving it. its an incredible conditioning workout and lots of grappling. i really enjoy choking people out. the downfall, my right big toe was jammed into the mat and started gushing with blood and the nail was half off so i had to sit out half of the class yesterday which was disappointing, but when i returned home i got some hedge clippers and tweezers and extracted the un-dead, deteriorating nail and it looks like i have a gap in my toe that can be filled with water like a small hot tub on a sticky saturday night. may be repulsive to some...ravishing to others..haha maybe not.. i may have to get it removed completely. what a masterpiece!

closing

ive been absent from this little blog for a while. but i cant ignore the hardcore fans and loyal followers enticing me to blog again. this year has just been flying by, in a good way. well there is a contract on the house and the closing date is june 17th and then we head to phoenix to begin a new chapter. things are coming together. everything is packed and already there, aside for the things we are taking with us on the drive. (it's going to be snug) and its not like i have an enormous trunk, may be able to fit a dwidget in there with short fingers, thats about it. hey you, listen to this... who gives you a tv 4 years ago and then says he wants it back... maybe a crackhead with a passion for pogosticking and blowing up beach balls, or a needle poker injecting between his toes and playing choo choo train on his new track marks, but not a relative.. oh well..! well exactly 2 weeks left. im feeling excited. ive been in texas for 10 years now, a decade. (is that considered a generation?) and i always said i didnt want to spend more than 10 years here, and looks like its working out that way.

restaurants which will be missed:
spiral
palermos (not the new psycho staff)
cosmic
maharaja (minus the anitsocial, expressionless waitress)oh lady i hope you read this!

cross country journey

i just realized it's been 14 days since i last blogged. well, no fear to all my loyal followers...back by popular demand the pasta man is back on the circuit with a vengeance and will leave you with a trail of mishaps, fun, humor and sorrow. last i wrote we were in athens ohio and as im writing this we are now in baltimore, md. so let me take you back a little bit and account for my absence. sit back and enjoy the ride.

after ohio our destination was rhode island (home to the pasta man). stayed at my aunts who lives in narragansett about 2 minutes from the beach. we saw my aunt, grandmother, and my cousin linda the next day. called my aunt and she said she was on her way to grandma's house so we met her there. my grandmother lives in a retirement place for the eldery. navigated to north providence smoothly to her place. parking was a bit of a hassle because it said mostly reserved for residents and didnt see any visitor parking. ended up parking in a residents only, we figured at worse case scenario a confrontation with a 75 year old loud mouth with a walker and dentures was a winning battle for us, so no worries there. bring it on! so all seems well as we enter the building, gain access to the elevator and walk down the narrow corridor like a death row inmate to grannies place, with my aunt in the doorway with a smile ready to greet us with some yogurt. as we entered the apartment there was this insufferable, unbearable smell like no other. foul and unpleasant. there was almost some spontaneous regurgitation. it was like a mixture of body odor, mustiness and no fresh air for 45 years. but the sad thing was once we were in there for 5 minutes it disappeared. i only hope that fresh aroma didnt blend into my natural guinea oil. if you bottled and air sealed a pig's uterus for 30 years then opened it, im guessing it would have a similar aroma. ok go hurl ,next....

we stayed there for a bit, then cousin linda came over and took us to a coffee shop to get some chai. it was a really cool, hip place. after the usual talking and her cell going off every 2 minutes from a text we headed out.

went out with my friend john and we hung out on thayer st and went to the shops a bit before they closed, actually the worker kicked us out, said you need to get out we are closing (excellent display of ri's hospitality) then we ate at a little pizza joint called via via...excellent and delicious! then went to a local college bar and put back some cold ones and talked shop.

also saw my cousin courtney who lives down by the beach. she came to see us at my aunts (her mom's) with her 4 year old, aka.. dylan the wildman. OK... this kid as cute as hell with big blue eyes and has no rules or discipline. he runs around the house like an inmate running the asylum listening to not a soul, but his evil friend damien on his shoulder. he likes to throw his toys up at the ceiling and see them come spiraling down like a skydiver from 20 thousand feet not landing on ground but on human skulls. it kept hitting my aunt in the head and they told him not to do it, but in a sweet voice like you tell your lover thanks for making me cookies! yeah that doesnt work. so no discipline.

went to lizzie bordens b&b and also saw the live performance of lizzie borden, a one woman show. both were excellent. took sunshine to my old stomping grounds, went to the beach and went outside to walk a bit, but the frigid ocean air was freezing our face. so we just walked a bit on the rocks and took some cool pictures.

my cousin shannon who lives in nyc invited us to stay with her, so we took the bus from providence to the port authority, a 3 hour tour with the weather getting rough and then navigated the city and strolled to her apartment. it was a really amazing place, spacious for nyc standards with a 2 bedroom eat in kitchen, living room and 2 full bathrooms. she took us to a mexican joint and a little italian eatery where we shared some amazing pizza. my cousin walks to and from work, to the gym and everywhere else. it was st patty's day when we arrived and during one of our walks with the many irish pubs approaching in the distance an inebriated kid emptied his stomach after i imagine an all day drink fest spewing out vanilla color liquid and chunks from his mouth right in front of his. luckily our incredibly quick reflexes and superhuman broad jump we avoided that christened sidewalk like the ebola virus! ny was awesome!
i think phoenix will be similar to that in the walk friendly aspect.

took sunshine to marchetti's for some calamari a la mama which was good. then had some pasta dishes. they werent bad, but there was enough to feed a poverty stricken family for 6 months. probably like a pound a pasta each and some eggplant, so needless to say we didnt finish it.

then back to ri and we were suppose to go out with my cousin and her friends, but they bailed. back in the day i threw my cousin in the trunk and hit her friend over the head with a prop lead pipe. maybe they were scared! the night before we left ri we went out to my cousins place to visit because dylan wanted to see us and show us his room. its a nice little beach house type place. had some clutter and one room looked like an eight year old on crack had its way with it on a pogo stick and pitchfork, totally messy and barely able to open the door.

so next morning we left bright and early and shocked my aunt and uncle because they thought we would probably leave at noon which was about the time we left the house each day. my aunt cried as we departed saying she will miss us and misses the family in texas. she totally stocked us up with snacks and bottled water.

so the above is a little taste of our journey so far.

athens ohio

this is our second day in athens ohio. drove 17 hours and spent one night at a best western. having lots of fun here. the houses and the landscape remind me of rhode island. today the weather was a little chilly, but that didnt stop us warriors from venturing out in the wild to take a run around the neighborhood and up an incredibly ridiculous steep hill all layered up with clothing upon clothing, scarf and a hat looking like we were going to rough it in a blizzard in antartica. luckily we found our way back to the lime house with a handfull of pesos, a body full of goosebumps and a smile. vanessa ordered some pizza from avalanche which was excellent. just finished a 50 minute intense non-stop yoga session with none other than the fiery red sunshine leading the way with a pack full of chatarangas and a fistfull of chair poses to top it off. felt like i was doing squats with a log cabin on my back, but my hairy little chicken legs handled it with ease. tomorrow is our last day here and we head toward the biggest little state in the union, otherwise known as rhode island.

bike ride

today was a good day. kind of chilled out at home for a while and just relaxed. we went on our first bike ride today. although it was a little windy and chilly it was a pretty good workout. bundled up with a hat and scarf across my face and neck looking like a wannabe carjacker. etched out a little ride which took 20 minutes and totally burned out my legs. tried to pull some wheelies, but im not riding my old school bmx, checkered pattern, double goose neck team murray x20r from 1989 rocking out to twisted sister on my walkman. so instead i switched gears like i was on a ducati with no helmet beaming into the future with my flux capacitor given to me by the doc. went to the library and checked 2 books to sunshine's 45 books. then had some mexican at cabo grande.

workout
bike ride 20 minutes

things to do

well i just finished a little workout. i jumproped for 10 minutes straight and the hit the heavy bag for 10 minutes straight, then i went old school and did a sledge hammer workout pounded it on the tire 50 times with each arm. a short, but effective and intense workout. if the weather stays nice i want to go for a bike ride later today as well. maybe ill pretend to go head on with a car and see the driver's reaction...kodac moment, so much fun! dont give me that, like you never did that before. ok your probably right ass-wipe, im starting to realize im the only one who does it, well yay for me then!..haha.. i was to lazy to get up at 8am to go to the final day of yoga class and down some champagne, but sunshine popped right up like a super ball blasting into space and hit the early yoga class as well as the nia class, then will toast the yoga studio adios. i still need to get a scrapbook for all our photos. will try to get my bony, yet appealing slacker ass in gear and tackle that at some point today. also need to get season 4 of lost or i may need to read up on it, i havent yet. but my addiction may get the best of me. withdrawal is setting in and hopefully i dont go door to door ransacking the neighbors house to see if they have that season, because im too lazy to go buy it.

just writing

i see the sun it shines so bright

and no more darkness up in the sky

i see the clouds as they take flight

and night falls quick no questions why

i hear the birds chirp on the grass

and the wind howling through the trees

i hear planes spiraling with no gas

and visions.... of rainbow fairies

eating

well yesterday was a great day. woke up early and mantained a good eating schedule throughout the day. that routine has been a little inconsistent as well, sometimes only eating one or two meals a day at odd times. but yesterday had 3 great meals and a fabulous snack which included fresh pineapples, crackers, cream cheese with tortillas and hummus. it was brilliant. also have been trying to make a smoothie a day, banana, strawberries, soy milk and honey. i can drink those all day and not feel like a stuck pig with no sweat glands. 85 degrees out yesterday, felt incredible. if i was by the ocean i would of went for a swim with jaws. im quick, dont worry mate!

workout: 1.6 run/walk
yoga class

flashes

ever see demons in your mind
is this real or a dream, tell me now
mirage and visions i need to find
darkness all around and moving slow
i see a coffin through the ground
and salty eyes remain above
body lies straight resting with a frown
here i rest with a baby dove

am i dead or in a dream
am i dead or in a dream
am i dead or in a dream

my eyes are open but this seems so cruel
i see no light or maybe i am blind
paralyzed for being a fool
im stuck in a box with just my mind
time to buck up and feel the heat
people all around with the rancid smell of stink
i sit up, look and get back to my feet
down my spilled bottle and take once last drink

am i dead or alive
am i dead or in a dream

i guess i just passed out, and im here to stay
but that jack taste so good, dont know why
crazy mixed up feelings day by day
this is my life, no reason to lie
have to stop the drinking, but its my only friend
sad and lonely with nowhere to run
its my curse and i feel im being led
to my 44 magnum, my hunger has has been fed

airport ride

yesterday i had to wake up really early to take my parents to the airport. i was very groggy, but i did return to full awareness during a very philosophical, thought provoking and quite amusing 20 minute conversation between my parents about the color of the airport signs. my mom thought they changed the color of the signs and the gate of american and my dad disagreed stating that it has been like that for the last 10 years. both had good arguments, i cant recall any of them because they were tough to interpret, but i'm sure they were persuasive in their usual raising of the voice antics and i swear im right attacks. very comical. today will see slumdog millionaire with sunshine, get a scrapbook and try to make an effort to put some pictures together.

workout log
2 miles 16 minutes
yoga class

just writing

i try to live not just exist

and try to smile at times im lost

i try to open that clenched fist

to have the peace of mind at all cost

i try to listen then respond

and not to judge and preconceive

i try to extend both my arms

cuz in the end its love we need

Take 5 Tuesday

1. 5 things that have interested you lately.
running, yoga, massage school, taking pictures, swimming

2. 5 things you’ve researched recently.
mickey rourke, providence weather, aikido, belize, mexico

3. 5 things you liked about the inauguration, (if you watched it.)
obama's speech, thousands in attendance cheering, gwb's idiotic expressions

4. 5 things your looking forward to this year.
wedding, honeymoon, relocating, an adventurous road trip, visiting friends

5. 5 things you’ve watched recently
Lost Season 1, Lost Season 2, Lost Season 3, NY Housewives, UFC

central market

3/23
Yesterday was a really good day. There's something about going to Central Market that is incredibly enjoyable and motivates me. I dont know if its the fresh smell of all the fabulous fruit permeating through the store as I enter through the doors or just everyone that shops there seems to have good energy, very friendly and a smile on their face. The cashier doesnt look at you like your a snot green dwarf with oranguntan feet and giraffe arms when you bring your own bags, so thats a plus. Had taco night and got emerced in the final episodes of Lost Season 3. Withdrawal is already setting in, so an upcoming purchase of Season 4 is any day now. The symptoms are not heroin like and feces on the floor, but they are pretty severe at that.

workout log
yoga class
15 min of jump roping

feeling productive

I have been feeling a bit lazy lately and my exercise routine has been suffering. I'm not sure if it's because of the weather which makes me feel like not wanting to do things sometimes, or me just making excuses not to get off my ass. So, this week I have started to get myself back in shape and top physical form and will be keeping track of my routine by blogging. Today, i was supposed to go to get my second level reiki, but i just wasnt feeling it for some reason. I do want to get that at some point however. I developed 50 or 60 pictures from our digital camera which i want to start a scrapbook for all the pictures that we take. I was never one for taking pictures and as I get older I feel like i should have. When I view a picture it's an instant memory and takes back to that time and place to where it happened, and sometimes I can even remember the mood I was in. I tend to forget things some times, but as a wise woman once told me.. 'you live in the present'. dont go thinking i have alzheimers now because I definetely DONT, smartass! so i think pictures is a good way of capturing all the good times shared and it's always enjoyable looking through the albums at a later date. I love pictures!

oh yea..... my 2 year old neice is giving orders now! she says RIGHT NOW!!!

just listened to go your own way by fleetwood mac on my itunes

workout log for 3/22/09:
went to the Y
distance 2.5 miles
time: 20 minutes

tomorrow i want to run 3 miles in 24 minutes and possibly do a workout as well.
also i have a yoga class later in the evening

thursday thirteen

13 movie quotes from Robert Deniro

1. Goodfellas: Always keep your mouth shut and never ratt on your friends.

2. Taxi Driver: Thats like a secret pin for the secret service isnt it

3. Raging Bull: You didnt get me down Ray

4. Cape Fear: Maybe I can chop you into 40 pieces

5. Heat: You see me doin' thrill-seeker liquor store holdups with a "Born to Lose" tattoo on my chest?

6. Meet the Fockers: I'm not so sure this wedding is such a good idea. I don't like what I'm seeing from these Fockers

7. Analyze that: This is a picture of a guy who is a nice hard-working fellow and comes home to find his wife is in bed with a midget who she has been fucking while he has been out of town

8. Casino: I don't give a shit who he.Tell him to take his fuckin' feet off the table. What's he think this is, a goddamn sawdust joint?

9. A Bronx Tale: The other night he threw away his baseball cards because he said Mickey Mantle wouldn't pay our rent

10. Deer Hunter: Every time he comes up, he's got no knife, he's got no jacket, he's got no pants, he's got no boots. All he's got is that stupid gun he carries around like John Wayne

11. Mean Streets: You two-faced, dirty fucking bastard! Don't you ever hit me again

12. Angel Heart: The flesh is weak, Johnny. Only the soul is immortal.

13. Untouchables: You can get further with a kind word and a gun than you can with just a kind word

friday fill ins

1. It seems like a the next door neighbor may fall off his roof.

2. Save me a bite of that brownie,when you're done, please?

3. If I thought you were committing armed robbery, I'd want my cut of the loot!

4. A straight jacket is what I think of most when I think of you.

5. To me, Valentine's Day means Zales are making big profits.

6. A morning shower gives me strength.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to having fun, tomorrow my plans include possibly buying a bike and Sunday, I want to go for a long bike ride!

just ranting

What are we doing? It's 2009, 09 for the hipsters and so-called cool kids. Are we all intellectually diseased? Spiritually untapped? Is our world view being submerged? Does anything we do even matter anymore? Has our sense of uniqueness and individuality disentigrated to where we all blend into one another. Everyone has their own innate self indentifying qualities, but somehow they seem to keep it hidden from the masses and mimic what's popular or trendy. Go to the mall on a busy weekend and there will be hundreds of people from kiddies, teens to adults. Why is it that most, not all seem to look the same, talk the same and some even share the same brain. Ok, well maybe thats a stretch, or is it. It's almost like an episode of the twilight zone, but there doesnt seem to be an ending in sight. I guess some by following suit and mimicing others, TV, etc people have that sense of belonging and acceptance. But is it worth it in the long run to keep your true self from truly blossoming. I have never been a conformist or really cared what people think, but I can see how people wouldnt want to reveal their true identity to peers,colleagues and parents and leave themself open for public attack and ridicule if its not of the "norm". On the other hand, it can be liberating to do so. Sometimes the only thing we have to fight back is our style, words, ideas and our ability to communicate. Take everything that's been implanted into your brain and disect it to its core. Is that truly what you want; better yet what you believe? Television and newspaper advertisements have an enormous impact on the buying power of Americans. People need to become aware of the influence in commercials to make them more appealing to the buyer. Has this all been societal influence, parental brainwashing and commercial propaganda? Remove all that and what can you create. Are we simple-minded or do we have any form of original thought left. The future is now, so go after what you really want. Sometimes silence speaks louder than words. It's time to stand up and take action. In closing I would just like to say I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life would have been like if I were to just be myself.

about me

books read in 2010

1. Vampire Diaries, L.J. Smith
2. Shutter Island, Dennis Lehane
3. Mystic River, Dennis Lehane
4. Uglies, Scott Westerfeld
5. Pretties, Scott Westerfeld
6. Angels

movies seen in 2010

1. it's complicated
2. law abiding citizen
3. leap year
4. the happening
5. the lovely bones
6. up in the air
7. valentine's day
8. gamer
9. whip it
10. rocky balboa
11. hitman
12. miami vice
13. the covenant
14. shutter island
15. from paris with love
16. the crazies
17. wanted
18. adventureland
19. hot tub time machine
20. she's out of my league