things to do

well i just finished a little workout. i jumproped for 10 minutes straight and the hit the heavy bag for 10 minutes straight, then i went old school and did a sledge hammer workout pounded it on the tire 50 times with each arm. a short, but effective and intense workout. if the weather stays nice i want to go for a bike ride later today as well. maybe ill pretend to go head on with a car and see the driver's reaction...kodac moment, so much fun! dont give me that, like you never did that before. ok your probably right ass-wipe, im starting to realize im the only one who does it, well yay for me then!..haha.. i was to lazy to get up at 8am to go to the final day of yoga class and down some champagne, but sunshine popped right up like a super ball blasting into space and hit the early yoga class as well as the nia class, then will toast the yoga studio adios. i still need to get a scrapbook for all our photos. will try to get my bony, yet appealing slacker ass in gear and tackle that at some point today. also need to get season 4 of lost or i may need to read up on it, i havent yet. but my addiction may get the best of me. withdrawal is setting in and hopefully i dont go door to door ransacking the neighbors house to see if they have that season, because im too lazy to go buy it.

just writing

i see the sun it shines so bright

and no more darkness up in the sky

i see the clouds as they take flight

and night falls quick no questions why

i hear the birds chirp on the grass

and the wind howling through the trees

i hear planes spiraling with no gas

and visions.... of rainbow fairies

eating

well yesterday was a great day. woke up early and mantained a good eating schedule throughout the day. that routine has been a little inconsistent as well, sometimes only eating one or two meals a day at odd times. but yesterday had 3 great meals and a fabulous snack which included fresh pineapples, crackers, cream cheese with tortillas and hummus. it was brilliant. also have been trying to make a smoothie a day, banana, strawberries, soy milk and honey. i can drink those all day and not feel like a stuck pig with no sweat glands. 85 degrees out yesterday, felt incredible. if i was by the ocean i would of went for a swim with jaws. im quick, dont worry mate!

workout: 1.6 run/walk
yoga class

flashes

ever see demons in your mind
is this real or a dream, tell me now
mirage and visions i need to find
darkness all around and moving slow
i see a coffin through the ground
and salty eyes remain above
body lies straight resting with a frown
here i rest with a baby dove

am i dead or in a dream
am i dead or in a dream
am i dead or in a dream

my eyes are open but this seems so cruel
i see no light or maybe i am blind
paralyzed for being a fool
im stuck in a box with just my mind
time to buck up and feel the heat
people all around with the rancid smell of stink
i sit up, look and get back to my feet
down my spilled bottle and take once last drink

am i dead or alive
am i dead or in a dream

i guess i just passed out, and im here to stay
but that jack taste so good, dont know why
crazy mixed up feelings day by day
this is my life, no reason to lie
have to stop the drinking, but its my only friend
sad and lonely with nowhere to run
its my curse and i feel im being led
to my 44 magnum, my hunger has has been fed

airport ride

yesterday i had to wake up really early to take my parents to the airport. i was very groggy, but i did return to full awareness during a very philosophical, thought provoking and quite amusing 20 minute conversation between my parents about the color of the airport signs. my mom thought they changed the color of the signs and the gate of american and my dad disagreed stating that it has been like that for the last 10 years. both had good arguments, i cant recall any of them because they were tough to interpret, but i'm sure they were persuasive in their usual raising of the voice antics and i swear im right attacks. very comical. today will see slumdog millionaire with sunshine, get a scrapbook and try to make an effort to put some pictures together.

workout log
2 miles 16 minutes
yoga class

just writing

i try to live not just exist

and try to smile at times im lost

i try to open that clenched fist

to have the peace of mind at all cost

i try to listen then respond

and not to judge and preconceive

i try to extend both my arms

cuz in the end its love we need

Take 5 Tuesday

1. 5 things that have interested you lately.
running, yoga, massage school, taking pictures, swimming

2. 5 things you’ve researched recently.
mickey rourke, providence weather, aikido, belize, mexico

3. 5 things you liked about the inauguration, (if you watched it.)
obama's speech, thousands in attendance cheering, gwb's idiotic expressions

4. 5 things your looking forward to this year.
wedding, honeymoon, relocating, an adventurous road trip, visiting friends

5. 5 things you’ve watched recently
Lost Season 1, Lost Season 2, Lost Season 3, NY Housewives, UFC

central market

3/23
Yesterday was a really good day. There's something about going to Central Market that is incredibly enjoyable and motivates me. I dont know if its the fresh smell of all the fabulous fruit permeating through the store as I enter through the doors or just everyone that shops there seems to have good energy, very friendly and a smile on their face. The cashier doesnt look at you like your a snot green dwarf with oranguntan feet and giraffe arms when you bring your own bags, so thats a plus. Had taco night and got emerced in the final episodes of Lost Season 3. Withdrawal is already setting in, so an upcoming purchase of Season 4 is any day now. The symptoms are not heroin like and feces on the floor, but they are pretty severe at that.

workout log
yoga class
15 min of jump roping

feeling productive

I have been feeling a bit lazy lately and my exercise routine has been suffering. I'm not sure if it's because of the weather which makes me feel like not wanting to do things sometimes, or me just making excuses not to get off my ass. So, this week I have started to get myself back in shape and top physical form and will be keeping track of my routine by blogging. Today, i was supposed to go to get my second level reiki, but i just wasnt feeling it for some reason. I do want to get that at some point however. I developed 50 or 60 pictures from our digital camera which i want to start a scrapbook for all the pictures that we take. I was never one for taking pictures and as I get older I feel like i should have. When I view a picture it's an instant memory and takes back to that time and place to where it happened, and sometimes I can even remember the mood I was in. I tend to forget things some times, but as a wise woman once told me.. 'you live in the present'. dont go thinking i have alzheimers now because I definetely DONT, smartass! so i think pictures is a good way of capturing all the good times shared and it's always enjoyable looking through the albums at a later date. I love pictures!

oh yea..... my 2 year old neice is giving orders now! she says RIGHT NOW!!!

just listened to go your own way by fleetwood mac on my itunes

workout log for 3/22/09:
went to the Y
distance 2.5 miles
time: 20 minutes

tomorrow i want to run 3 miles in 24 minutes and possibly do a workout as well.
also i have a yoga class later in the evening

thursday thirteen

13 movie quotes from Robert Deniro

1. Goodfellas: Always keep your mouth shut and never ratt on your friends.

2. Taxi Driver: Thats like a secret pin for the secret service isnt it

3. Raging Bull: You didnt get me down Ray

4. Cape Fear: Maybe I can chop you into 40 pieces

5. Heat: You see me doin' thrill-seeker liquor store holdups with a "Born to Lose" tattoo on my chest?

6. Meet the Fockers: I'm not so sure this wedding is such a good idea. I don't like what I'm seeing from these Fockers

7. Analyze that: This is a picture of a guy who is a nice hard-working fellow and comes home to find his wife is in bed with a midget who she has been fucking while he has been out of town

8. Casino: I don't give a shit who he.Tell him to take his fuckin' feet off the table. What's he think this is, a goddamn sawdust joint?

9. A Bronx Tale: The other night he threw away his baseball cards because he said Mickey Mantle wouldn't pay our rent

10. Deer Hunter: Every time he comes up, he's got no knife, he's got no jacket, he's got no pants, he's got no boots. All he's got is that stupid gun he carries around like John Wayne

11. Mean Streets: You two-faced, dirty fucking bastard! Don't you ever hit me again

12. Angel Heart: The flesh is weak, Johnny. Only the soul is immortal.

13. Untouchables: You can get further with a kind word and a gun than you can with just a kind word

friday fill ins

1. It seems like a the next door neighbor may fall off his roof.

2. Save me a bite of that brownie,when you're done, please?

3. If I thought you were committing armed robbery, I'd want my cut of the loot!

4. A straight jacket is what I think of most when I think of you.

5. To me, Valentine's Day means Zales are making big profits.

6. A morning shower gives me strength.

7. And as for the weekend, tonight I'm looking forward to having fun, tomorrow my plans include possibly buying a bike and Sunday, I want to go for a long bike ride!

just ranting

What are we doing? It's 2009, 09 for the hipsters and so-called cool kids. Are we all intellectually diseased? Spiritually untapped? Is our world view being submerged? Does anything we do even matter anymore? Has our sense of uniqueness and individuality disentigrated to where we all blend into one another. Everyone has their own innate self indentifying qualities, but somehow they seem to keep it hidden from the masses and mimic what's popular or trendy. Go to the mall on a busy weekend and there will be hundreds of people from kiddies, teens to adults. Why is it that most, not all seem to look the same, talk the same and some even share the same brain. Ok, well maybe thats a stretch, or is it. It's almost like an episode of the twilight zone, but there doesnt seem to be an ending in sight. I guess some by following suit and mimicing others, TV, etc people have that sense of belonging and acceptance. But is it worth it in the long run to keep your true self from truly blossoming. I have never been a conformist or really cared what people think, but I can see how people wouldnt want to reveal their true identity to peers,colleagues and parents and leave themself open for public attack and ridicule if its not of the "norm". On the other hand, it can be liberating to do so. Sometimes the only thing we have to fight back is our style, words, ideas and our ability to communicate. Take everything that's been implanted into your brain and disect it to its core. Is that truly what you want; better yet what you believe? Television and newspaper advertisements have an enormous impact on the buying power of Americans. People need to become aware of the influence in commercials to make them more appealing to the buyer. Has this all been societal influence, parental brainwashing and commercial propaganda? Remove all that and what can you create. Are we simple-minded or do we have any form of original thought left. The future is now, so go after what you really want. Sometimes silence speaks louder than words. It's time to stand up and take action. In closing I would just like to say I would much rather have regrets about not doing what people said than regretting not doing what my heart led me to and wondering what life would have been like if I were to just be myself.